Mon Dieu, mon Dieu, it's been sooooo long! I'd like to be able to start this post by saying we have a bun cooking nicely in the oven....but not yet, dear readers, not yet....
All care, love and tenderness towards myself and my body that had stemmed from reading heaps of fertility literature has gone a little out the window, with bad eating habits and more partying than usual creeping back in. R's third fertility test results came back with the news there has been a slight improvement in his sperm count - up to 5million from 4million (with 20million considered 'normal'; but what's normal, eh?!) though 80% of the poor fellas were still unhealthy and unable to swim....
And yet...and yet...I know that our baby is on its way. Somewhere out there in the ether is our little soul just waiting for the right time. We just need to hold a safe space for when they are ready.
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In many ways, our journeys are so similar. As of this year, we have been trying for almost 2.5 years. I have not given up yet. And I believe that my baby will come when I am most prepared, mentally. I spoke to a healer once. She was a new friend and we used a pendulum to ask this question. In my heart, I asked if I am meant to be a mother. The pendulum gave a swinging yes. So I am waiting. ;-) Perhaps the universe knows much better than we do. There will be a right time even if we feel that we should speed up the process. My Law of Attraction coach told me to preface my dreams with "I am in the process of (fill your dream here)" and simply let go and watch what happens. Being in the process of allows you to be in the present, as well as persuade your own self to work towards a goal, even if the goal is something like "being a mother". Do try if you wish. Love from the other side of the world....
Thank you, Maya, that's lovely practice and one I shall be trying. It makes sense to pass our intentions over to the Universe and trust that they will manifest but sometimes rather hard, eh?!
When I'm disconnected from Source, i feel irrationally cross that it isn't happening NOW and then I remember everything that this journey has taught us and I think 'ok, let go, it'll happen'. I think we're so used to knowing exactly when the next chapter of our lives will unfold, of having complete control over it that it sometimes feels alien to surrender to the Unknown. But I rather like it. It's been an enormous learning curve and I hope has made us better parents in the long term. Sending you blessings from England - may your little soul manifest soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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