So we're officially here and still alive! We've not fallen into the sea...yet. Happy new year one and all! I just wanted to write a quick post on the back of the most amazing weekend R and I shared. A year or so ago one of my clients went on a Healing the Ancestors shamanic course and, knowing mine and R's long journey to have babies, he discreetly recommended we do it. I forgot all about it until a while ago when on a whim I booked us on the course, balking a little at the cost but hoping it would be helpful.
Well....yowzers...powerful, mind-blowing stuff, my friends! It is based on family constellations (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Family_Constellations), work devised by psychotherapist Bert Hellinger to release and heal family patterns. There were about 23 of us in the group and we opened with some deep shamanic work and chanting so we were in quite powerful states when we began the constellations. Basically, you choose several members of the group to represent members of your family and our incredible healer group facillitator divined what was going on in each 'constellation' and found ways to resolve deep-rooted problems, some which went back many generations. I know I'm doing an awful job describing it and anyone who's done it is probably thinking 'what are you talking about it?!' but I think it is some of the most intense and powerful healing I have witnessed in my life (and hey, I've done a lot of courses, met many people in my line of work and experienced some lovely magic in my time). I can't recommend it highly enough.
R got to meet the spirits of his brother and sisters who were miscarried before he was born. He bent down to honour them and Jill, our magic-weaving facillitator, asked him to say to them 'I honour you as my brother/sister. Just because you died doesn't mean I can't have children.' I was awed by the fact this woman did not know us or our issues and yet had divined that this was the healing that needed doing. Needless to say, we cried buckets and R has been in a state of peace since - as an only child, he has alwasy felt an awful weight of responsibility which has now lifted.
Since the course, we have floated around, been thoughtful and peaceful and grateful. It seems that magic was abroad over that weekend and we must wait and see what happens. There is a sense of deep release.
Perhaps this all sounds a little mad and flakey to some. I know that there was a time when I just wasn't open to healing like this but now I just feel grateful that there are people like Jill willing to work on such a deep level to heal human consciousness and help us find ways to live more beautiful, aware and fulfilled lives. I thought I'd throw it out there anyway in case it resonates with anyone who has family stuff going on that might be affecting their potential to become parents. Happy seeking dear ones!
